From the recording Glass Break Dementia
<p>Here's me trying to laugh through my anxiety attacks. Most of my immediate family has dealt with anxiety disorders; I've fought them since I was 13. At the most anxious periods in my life, I have experienced hallucinations, many involving spiders. This is not hypnogogic / hypnopompic, which occur during sleep or awakening -- this was during regular daily activities. </p>
<p>During a particularly tough stretch in 2002-2003, I was rather frequently hallucinating that the people around me were turning into person-sized spiders, wearing clothes, often driving oncoming cars. One day after such an episode, Bowie's "Ziggy Stardust" came up on shuffle play, and after David sang the line that became this song's title, I laughed. A lot. For several minutes. Where WEREN'T the spiders? So I started writing a list of where the spiders were.</p>
<p>I wrote the chorus/turnaround in '09 to finish it.</p>
Lyrics
<p>SO WHERE WERE THE SPIDERS?</p>
<p> </p>
<p>In my chair</p>
<p>In my hair</p>
<p>I see spiders everywhere</p>
<p>On my door-</p>
<p>Knobs and floor</p>
<p>I freak out like a crackwhore</p>
<p>Super-big</p>
<p>Dancing jigs</p>
<p>Even as they write “Some Pig”</p>
<p> </p>
<p>I don’t like the way</p>
<p>They trap their prey</p>
<p>In the webs of lies they say</p>
<p>‘Cause it reminds me of you…</p>
<p> </p>
<p>In my place</p>
<p>In my face</p>
<p>On some album art by Space</p>
<p>Drunk in bars</p>
<p>Driving cars</p>
<p>(that’s how they got here from Mars)</p>
<p>In my dreams</p>
<p>Sewing seams</p>
<p>Plotting deaths and graves and schemes</p>
<p> </p>
<p>I don’t like the way</p>
<p>They wrap their prey</p>
<p>In the webs of lies they say</p>
<p>‘Cause it reminds me of you…</p>
<p> </p>
<p>At the mall</p>
<p>On my wall</p>
<p>Crawling up towards my left ball</p>
<p>On my toe</p>
<p>In my fro</p>
<p>Right by my office window</p>
<p>In my veal</p>
<p>As I squeal</p>
<p>Who cares if they are not real?</p>
<p> </p>
<p>I don’t like the way</p>
<p>They poison their prey</p>
<p>With the venomous lies they say</p>
<p>‘Cause it reminds me of you…</p>